weeknotes 32.32
hi this was a good week for once!! hello from ventura. i actually have no reason this post is so late other than being tired!! i need to quickly post this so i can check out and go get food, so no bevvie and no food.
gas in ventura is $6.30
no strings broken, yippie.
i saw joyce manor on friday at the fillmore. i love joyce manor. their self titled and never hungover again are Very Important albums to me. never hungover again is actually a certified no skip album, but their self titled came out at the perfect time for me, which was 17 and a senior and high school. i also saw bts on sunday. seeing these two back to back was kind of crazy to me. last time i saw joyce manor was in 2014 at the now defunct fyf fest. last time for bts was weekend 1 in vegas ptd in 2022 which was just before they announced hiatus in 2022. so really what i'm trying to say is that being a stan is so unbelievably fun and has been giving me the will to continue to keep living. i'm seeing bts next week in vegas so i can talk about that more next week. but the secret songs were dope and bst... crazy pull of songs. but because stanford is outside and open and theres smoke and sunlight the whole first song was straight up not even visible lol. my seats were pretty bad but ticketing is awful and i accepted whatever i could get. i feel extremely young again. mostly because i'll be going to like 5 concerts in the span of a week. shows used to be like $10 so it was much more accessible... but whatever i sound like a boomer if i complain about the cost of concert tickets!!!
i do have to admit that while the sun was setting it looked soooo nice. but there was so much pollen in the air we started tearing up. and i cried to fucking ptd last time so i would not lie and be like "im crying because pollen" like i cried to one of their happier songs cuz i knew military service was coming lol. and it was soo windy that we actually got confetti!! thanks wind.
it says stanford... i love them. but go bears!!!
okay because i love bts i am not afraid to criticize them because i mean it with all the love in my heart but i hate jimins long hair!!! it looked good this day though so maybe i just needed to see it with my eyeballs. but theres also something to be said about looks and concepts for each comeback so sometimes theres gonna be a few things i don't like. like jungkooks fuckass bob. like at no point should jungkook have my haircut but he did and thats knowledge i had to live with.
the foot in this is making me laugh
okay i actually have a lot of things to talk about that arent week specific. and this is when normal people would make a blog post, but its actually cutting into my vacation time so i'm not gonna do that. but i keep seeing the Wasian discourse and man i have a lot of thoughts lol. basically its worth discussing and broadly speaking there are a few things that are actually going to be a "wasian" experience based on the proximity to whiteness. like most wasians have a white dad and if your white dad pulled in america is v different than if your white dad was a loser back home and had to be a sexpat to get a girl. i'm kind of joking, but there is a difference. with an asian dad and white mom i don't have that at all. but with this "wasian" discourse focusing on white supremacy and being attractive its kind of hard to bring up that being mixed is its own experience but being wasian vs blasian are two different experiences but the shared experiences should have enough common ground to not exclude anyone!!! being mixed is a different experience that just got reduced to "wasians are hot" and shit about being white. this is messy but i've worked through this well over 10 years ago and its kind of a shame that this is the discourse that people seem to focus on. and if you're mixed (of any kind, and also not mixed) please sign up for bone marrow donation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like if people talk about being mixed and you can only focus on your specific mix (wasian) then you're focusing on identity and write that shit in a journal!!!!!!!! if i did it so can you. and identity is worth discussing but its actually surface level and isolating which is why that wasian meet up is a mess because some people "dont look wasian". i dont know if i'm making sense.
the tl;dr reason of bone marrow donation is that you need to have a similar genetic makeup for the donor marrow to be accepted. so if you're mixed, or ethnically uncommon, whatever i mean by that bone marrow will be harder for you to receive and your family may not be a match either. i get that in a park no one wants to talk about this and people wanna wasian-max but this is a good example of things that could be discussed besides "wasians hot" because it includes all mixed people.
okay i dont think i have anything else to say that is so urgent i need to post asap.