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weeknotes 32.22

happy monday!! i thought about playing video games this past week just to be able to talk about it. i felt left out since nathan and sean both talked about video games last week. and i draft all blog posts in obsidian and the release notes say that pics are resizable... thank god.

vibe setting

drinking: water, how boring and necessary, but it is 10 pm so i should.

listening: this podcast episode because wild geese recommended it and i'm easily influenced by women. and not in a man hating way, but i feel like men are soooo uninteresting lmao. do the girlies know what i mean? like sometimes men are talking at you/through you as if you are a mirror of whatever bullshit they think you will care about. the exception is when you share interests. but like a random man talking to you about shit you dont care about? one of the worst life experiences.

soo, my anniversary was yesterday but nick worked so we didn't do anything. so we will do something tomorrow. this week has been unsurprisingly stressful with everything happening in the world. nicks parents have a flight out of qatar in just a few more hours. so this week it was really hard for me to concentrate. i've had a lot of good conversation with my coworkers lately. lots of "fresh air" breaks, meaning i'm the only non smoker but ill still go to hang!! one of my coworkers wife is pregnant with twins and its been interesting to see him now really talk about how little value we create and how utilizing open source will help build community and keep things from dying. and its not surprising. we definitely know all the engineers who are very much "old school" and aren't receptive to change. and i'm not sure why but i even surprised myself with the fact a lot of people are against our current war situation with iran and israel. like i dont think i work with a single person who supports the war. nice. and its probably because most people i work with are immigrants or first gen americans who likely fled because of war.

so because i haven't been able to concentrate i haven't read any book at all this week. since i get through a lot of reading during my lunch breaks i opted to mindlessly scroll because i didn't want to think. my international booker progress is abysmal. we are green and trembling is just so hard to read? props to the translator but honestly, what the fuck? genuinely i have no idea whats going on so its hard for me to continue to reach for it. so i'm going to switch to the wax child and hope for the better. ill finish we are green and trembling but i am also on a time crunch so i do need to be somewhat quick when i read these books. i've mentally accepted this might be one i'll ignore until after the winner is announced.

i've spent a lot of my free time figuring out logistics of the trip next month. i have the feeling if we dont plan things we will play halo 3 and pinball. kind of joking. but when you travel in shoulder months you do need indoor and outdoor activities!! but i need to book a rental car for us to drive to mass moca since i can get a discount through work. and we will likely go to salem. so interesting to see that the international booker longlist topics seem to populate things in my life. but i think thats kind of true for most things in life. or maybe its on my mind so it catches my attention. lots of Research and nothing to show for it. also i need to gatekeep because i need to make a non-weeknotes post, soon,, eventually.

catholicism as an aesthetic has been pretty funny to see. mostly because i get it. but its interesting to see non-catholics interested in catholicism mostly because of the vibes. trust me its out there. it might also be because i keep googling 'immaculate conception' PLEASE do not ask why. i genuinely dont have the words to explain a random thought i have. maybe one day i will be able to explain it in a way that doesn't make me look like a conspiracy theorist.

to be honest, kind of a bad week.

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