hi to my 1 reader
i havent forgotten about this blog. i've just been busy enjoying my life for seemingly the first time in months.
anyways, i have a lot of things to say but i should at least think about forming a nice and concise thought which will be easy to understand but i get like 90% of the way to something Okay and close out the window.
nathan and olivia came to visit. i'm going to make separate post about it. i was waiting on my 35mm film to get developed but the place i went didn't scan it correctly and i'm maybe too shy to be like "hii... can u pls redo this" so maybe when i drop off my next roll.
i guess thats also a thing. i bought that little kodak half frame 35mm camera. not as a bit but definitely did not need it. i should go find my 35mm cameras. i missed shooting film, i honestly missed doing things that are good for photos. and i don't think i should save film or only take pictures of good things, because i unfortunately do take a lot of pictures of trash for some reason, but going around and taking pictures of nothing is a great joy of mine i need to do. (i'm resisting the urge to act like a dog excited at the idea of going outside for a walk)
but i think i need to focus on hobbies or interests because with nick working nights i'm pretty alone and have a lot of free time. i don't struggle to fill it but i'm fed up with what i'm doing which is currently nothing. i've finished one book this week which is a step up. i'm working my way through all the books i've started and read the majority of but havent finished. i dont know why i do this. i do this for games also. i just dont want it to end? like i can only experience something for the first time once.
i actually have mentioned this blog to a few people, never the URL because i loveeee to keep secrets that dont mean anything. if someone asks for it i will probably give it to them. but i like posting to no one. but i have realized i've neglected this blog. i really need to hunker down and fix this to make it look intentional and not that i drop my nonsense off into a void and disappear for a month again. there are a lot of things i need to do, but i'm actually going to LA on sunday and to be mysterious i wont say why, but maybe i'll blog about it. i can't make any promises because i'm not going to keep them ahahah.
i also accidentally bought a ticket to japan again. please dont ask me how someone "accidentally" buys a ticket. so i need to just full send on the draft i've had saved for months about japan. but just know, i hate it and wanna redo it. but i'm never going to be happy with any of these posts tbh.
i'm typing this at work, i should be working. and its not like i don't have work, i have a lot and thats why i'm typing this.
i think i've rambled on long enough about nothing in particular. but i have a lot of little things. i've seen a few blogs where people can have little micro-posts. i need to figure out how to do it. then the shit posting will truly begin.
how are you?