monday check ins but i forget what day of the week it is
i mentioned in my friends discord server a few months ago that i typically check in on seans job hunt on mondays. sean now has a job and even had a #1 trending post on bearblog!! fun. it's been nice to set goals, voice them and feel somewhat responsible for those knowing that people will ask about it. we've also started this in various ways. and now we decided to do a goal for the month of september. monday check ins are good.
mondays are typically good days for me to be productive. i was just sick these last few days.
for september i had a weird goal that isn't time bound or even easy to explain by SMART goals. but i've declared it to my friends so now i'm going to be held accountable; i'll start weekly notes. i miss curation, which i've talked about before probably on this blog already. i miss having a time capsule of what i liked at specific points in my life. and i think i see things i like and let them disappear. but i've realized a few things that i think may be issues. all minor and nothing drastic and basically all of them excuses. the last few months of the year are incredibly fast and expensive for me.
- i have to organize my files. i have years of stuff just dumped and unorganized. can't organize because i need a new harddrive or SSD. "pay for cloud storage" no
- my phone screen is breaking. it currently has a green tint, which on its own i can ignore. but i am now nervous that it will break in japan next month which i should reaaaalllly start planning. the only thing i've done is pay for the chiikawa park stupid lottery tickets that i wont know if i got until the 17th.
- my car is at the autobody shop. because my bumper got fucked up in april. alternator is fixed, but i still need to fix the root cause, which was oil leaking into the alternator. so a lot of my extra money is going into fixing my car.
- since i'll be in japan in late october i will most likely be doing all xmas shopping there which is not bad. but i need to go with a plan so i dont spend more than a few hours shopping for shit.
- nicks brother had a health scare, and now his dad wants us (nick and i and his brother and SIL) to go to vegas for thanksgiving and nicks bday (which is also the day after my dads bday) and i dont know if that is possible because those are also our working days. and you'd think for canadians and retired people the days of the week wouldn't matter but somehow it most likely will. but were both so low on PTO lol. i'm not opposed to going but i can't take hella time off because i need the money.
- and i have about 3 things at work i need to wrap before i go to japan. when i come back i will most likely not have any work that needs to be done at a timely manner until 2026. which is nice. the 3 things i need to do are like 85% done but the last touches are always the most time consuming.
so what is actually stopping me from weeknotes?? its all mental bro. i dont know. one reason is because my birthday is so soon, so what if i just start the week of my birthday... but i'm dumb i can just start numbering them at that point. but mentally this is where i'm at right now. i know weeknotes generally have no format, and until i get a lot of things out of my brain and off my plate i don't think i have time to "enjoy" things. a lot of what i do is passive, except read. they may be crappy like this until i feel like i can actually do things.
oh, i'm currently buddy reading east of eden with kenneth for september. and when he comes up to visit next (likely for thanksgiving or xmas) we can go to the steinbeck center.
okay bye.